Still moving in, but welcome to
a window into my world.
Contents
Job title
TS escort
Key responsibilities
Giving men and women a taste of the best of both worlds, by heating them up and setting them on fire.
Electronic mail address
I can be reached at [email protected]
Web address
Type some text.
Pager phone no.
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My Transformation.
This is a basic male-to-female transformation, with the exception of the final SRS, which will not be performed.
Breast Enlargement.
Silicone injection every two weeks until I reach the goal of a 42D bra size.
Minor Cosmetic Surgery.
Removal of birth mark on lower lip and left arm, and three facial moles.
I am your basic 40 year old transexual who has finally decided to pull herself out of the shadows and step into the light of day. I have been hiding in closets for far to long now, and just recently put my transformation into high gear. Although my dressing started many years ago, at the age of 14. I have had to deal the issues of it, as well as a few negative patterns and influences that have kept me in self-doubt for many years, once I was able to deal with and away from these issues. The decisions and chooses I needed to make about my future were crystal clear to me.
I live and work in the Nashville area, because this is the area I was raised, and even thou there is famliy in the area. I am a stranger in the same family I was raised with and this area has not always been my home. Only since Dec of 1968 can I call Nashville home. We lived in a small farming community south of Franklin before moving to Nashville, and the move was because of me.
About two weeks after my ninth birthday in 1967, on a Saturday we were headed to the back lot of the barnyard to gather up some cows. As we passed the barn, there was the frame of an a salt lick shed. This was nothing more than a tin roof supported by two posts, and a block of salt was set in the middle for the cows to lick. Now for my birthday I got a tool kit from a relative. In this tool kit was a small hammer. Sometime between my birthday and this Saturday I broke the handle out of the hammer. So I natural substituted something for the handle, a piece of tobacco stick. As I passed under the tin roof of this salt lick. I begin to bang on the nails in the post. Something I have been doing since I got the tool kit. Unknown to me at the time was a nest of Yellow Jackets on the other end of this tin roof. I can remember turning around and looking at the nest once they started to sting me. I had disturbed them and they were pissed. I was stung in the back of the head thirty-six times.
This situation changed my life and the relationship with my family forever. My father never looked at me the same way, and I think this is why he don't allow me the have anything after this. I have for years thought that he held this against me, but it could be the fact that he was trying to prevent this type of situation from occurring again, and being over protective of me has actually backfired against him. Be causes some of things he tried to prevent me from doing I managed to do anyway. For each an every obstacle he put in front of me, I found a way of overcoming it.
This desire to protect me, if this is indeed the reason behind his behavior towards me. It helped to cultivate an interest in crossdressing, because out of bordom. I begin to wear my sister's and mother's clothing, and move walk around the house when I was by myself. In fact, this is one of the reasons for the desire on my part to transform myself, which is what I am doing now. This is not the only reason for the crossdressing, you could say for starters, it help in the development. I was also raised around just women or girls all my life, so you could say that I am natural drawn to this type of environment.
As one of the means of protecting me. I was forbidden to have friends of my own. I spent time playing by myself or the girlfriends of my sisters, to some extent. This didn't change as I got older. I still was with myself as the girlfriends of my sisters dropped off, or begin to develop interest else were.
In 1972, my father begin to experience problems with his knees because of his work. This prompted a job change, which allow him to be at home at night rather than being at a second job. Something that he had done for the first thirteen years of my life. This job change put new tension and a new strain on the already troubled relationship that I had with my father. It would be easier to say that there was no relationship with my father. After being home a night for six months of me, or seeing first hand what my mother had coped with for thirteen years, and the fact that he never had to be around us while we were growing up. I was shipped off to boarding school in eastern part of the state I live in.
At this school over a four year period, I was among others there, molested by the Headmaster of the school. This abuse went on for the entire four year period that I was at this school. During the first two years, each time I tried to get a letter out about the abuse, he managed to get his hands on it, and I would get punished until I wrote the letter over again. Anything in the letters that made the school sound bad was a red flag, and the letter would have to be written over before the was allowed to proceed. After awhile I got tied of all the beatings, and just dropped the subject, and tried to did develop an interest, but this was quickly turned against me, and a new battle of wits begin between me and my father. I also think that this was done delibertly by Col Jones to distract me and my parents from what was actually going on.
I spent the next twenty-two years of my life distracted by seeking revenge against this person. So I trained myself in every type of military tactic I could find, and I wasted my time and twenty-two years of my life wanting something I never got or actually wanted. I was finally able to sit down and tell the parents what actually happened at this boarding school. You see, one of the reasons I have decided to proceed with this transformation is so I can get away from the masculine military nature I developed for a more feminine softness, that I would rather be. Because of all that happened at this school.
It has taken many years to reverse the effects of the negative emotional bondage I created for myself while seeking the desire for revenge, and I allowed this cycle to control me by allowing myself to be pulled in to the negative energies that the whole situation created in the first place. The understanding that I was provided five years ago allowed for the lifting of the veil that blinded me to the true. The old saying of "The truth will set you free" comes to mind.
Once I allowed myself the opportunity to see beyond this veil. I was able to make the necessary decisions about the direction my life needed to take. I also gave myself sometime to explore whether I truly fit within a group of individuals or just an outsider, and an outsider is all I am to them. Upon realizing this, I was able to do further reseach, and then was able to make the decision to transform myself into the woman of my dreams. Mikaela Aylssa Campbell
What I enjoy most of all is:
Computers
and software - I have torn mine down and rebuilt it several times, and
am always interested in making needed improvements to it's structure or
upgrading its software.
Books
- Because I was forbidden to read them when I was growing up. This is were
my love for books comes from.
Shopping
- I love buying clothes, especially feminine things I like. I like to look
and feel sexy.